I'm gonna do it!

I'm so tired of being overweight, of feeling bad when I eat, of letting myself down because I stood on the scale and again it's not changing (or it's changing towards the wrong end!) I'm tired of taking blood pressure medicine and aspirin. I'm tired of getting naked and feeling like I need to hide my body from my husband because I hate the way I look! I'm tired of putting on pants that are too small because I can't bear buying another pair of bigger ones! I've done it before, lost 20 pounds and then I jumped back to where I am now, I don't know why, just laziness?!?! It's frustrating to see, and I'm tired of being the example I am to my kids! Today is the day! I'm making the change! I'm going to meet with my trainer today at 4pm, I'm going to work my butt off (and hopefully some of my stomach and thighs and arms and back fat and I can go on and on!) and I'm keeping a food log of every single thing I stick in my mouth! Today I'm gonna do it! I'm on my way to losing weight but most importantly I'm on my way to feeling better about myself and the example I'm setting for my kids!